
i journaled yesterday for the first time in about 5 months. i hadn't missed it until a couple days ago when i started feeling this vague little stirring in my thoughts, a sort of gentle nudge saying, 'hey... maybe you want to journal...?'
so since nick had to work until 10 p.m. at panera last night i took some supper over to him then just hung around on their cushy couch and journaled for a couple hours.
the biggest thing i realized is that i'm a pansy whiner. after about 5 pages of whining, i started getting a rather disturbing picture of how negative i've been lately. putting all my gripes down on paper made me see them clearly and realize how pointless it is to dwell on them.
there is so much i want right now that i just can't have.
after going on and on about it, i was almost sick of myself.
i found myself wanting more than all of the other wants just to be content.
as i thought about how to do that, how to go about being content, and after asking god to help me be more satisfied, i paused for a second then noticed that i actually was content right then. i was sitting in a warm place with cozy food smells, classical music playing, and the cutest guy ever just across the counter (i stopped to watch him frequently - he's so stinkin' adorable!)...
instead of needing to work up a sense of contentment, i found that i just was.
it felt good.
it's been a while.
these flower and berry pictures are from last week, right before the arctic wind and rain descended upon us.
on another note...
we found this couch at the thrift store a few weeks ago for a mere $25! nick was never big into the floral pattern of the previous furniture. i like more simple color palettes also. some may call it drab (along with my sense of fashion - today i'm wearing brown and navy - not too artsy, i know) but i just call it comfortable. i like comfortable colors that don't reach out and smack you. pretentious colors - blah.

we put the floral furniture over at the garage apartment (since erica wanted the couch that was there to go over to rob's house...) and brought the chair/ottoman from erica's... a case of musical furniture. someday we'd like to spot a different chair/ottoman at a thrift store or something - this set is not my favorite. i reupholstered it long ago but it looks a little too reupholstered for my taste.

next room to be photographed... the finished bathroom! we have to wait until tuesday before we can really finish (payday!) but it's coming, people, it's coming.